June 1, 2016
Up until yesterday at 3:15 pm, I had been in my flow. Things were going great, I was feeling great, and everything was lining up just right. So interestingly, there was a huge storm approaching our area that led us to run from the pool to the car and get home as fast and safely as possible. Little did I know, this storm was to foreshadow the internal storm that was about to touch down in my space. I got to school to pick up my daughter, umbrella in hand, and as soon as I find her she tells me that she lost her cochlear implant! I went into instant panic. I got really angry too. What? How could this happen? I was completely out of my mind and I was completely out of my body, I was fully disconnected. My mind was spinning, my heart was racing, I couldn’t think straight, I wanted to cry, I wanted to yell, I was mean, I wasn’t myself. I held onto this situation all evening and watched everything around me continue to spin out of control. I went to bed thinking I would wake up feeling so much better. Nope. Not the case. I felt just as uncomfortable when I woke up in the morning. Ahh! I want this feeling to go away. So here’s what I did to let it go, get present, and move on.- I got grounded. I simply asked the earth to come and find me and got reconnected. This is when I realized that my tailspin yesterday was all about not being grounded to the earth. More on grounding HERE.
- I got neutral. This situation isn’t bad or good (still working on this, but am laughing about it as I write) it’s just what happened. If I take all the judgement off of it and off of my daughter then I immediately feel lighter, more joyful, and can actually laugh that she flushed a $15,000 device down the toilet.
- I forgave myself. Forgiveness for acting like a spazz yesterday. Forgiveness for judging myself. Forgiveness for not being the best version of myself.
